I met with a friend today who has been walking with the Lord a lot longer than me, and without thinking I emptied out all my frustration about the difficulties of trying to live for Christ; trying to grab a hold of the grace of God while being so proud, close friends stabbing me in the back, people leaving, people using me, being confused, tired, drained, lonely, and trying desperately to rely on God daily for strength but failing due to my own laziness and evil.

“Wrestle with God,” is what he told me.

Genesis 32:24-32